IM DONE
...sick and FUCKING TIRED
of trying to care about people
all it does is come back and stab me in the back
YOU DONT HAVE ANY IDEA
what the fuck ive been going through since school started
Jacob is the first and primary thing(and this is not nessisarily a bad thing)
I've tried so hard
to deal and be dealt with
but if i could get a raise of hands and an explaination if you read this please in a poll.
the question is this: have any of you who read this...and respond, really ever cared about someone? and if so, cared about someone to deep, and with so much passion that you trust this person down to the PIT OF YOUR FUCKING SOUL? and if yes again, why? why do you feel this way, and i dont mean for you to really asnwer the why part of that question. Mostly because i want you to think about it. And I mean really think about it.
Jacob
i trust this man with my life, my heart, and my soul....and hoping he WILL NOT read this.
I feel like im losing my mind right now, sitting on my bed writing this stupid damn bullitin, with tears streaming down my face. HOW GAY IS THAT!?
Really?!
to want something to much and to know you cant have it
it kills you
and it eats you alive

Im very tired and am a mental breakdown at this moment.
im shaking
crying
sobbing
same thing whatever
im babbleing
wishing he could understand
i hope one day he will understand
but im afraid that when he finally does
it may be to late